wew

i feel like i've been blabbing a lot about this and that - honestly though there is just a lot going on in my mind as of late. Beginning the road for Ironman Hawaii, taking on a new role at WG where i'll be a community environmentalist, trying to break down my lounge idea into manageable tasks, wondering when sri lanka will occur and the search for someone to share it all with. i wonder about life, where i'm going, about my relationship with the creator, the journey. i really need to get away and just spend a prolonged period of time alone with our creator and i've had that feeling for a while my goal is to pick a time for that before the months end. much like my vision quest of few years ago.

what is going on? why do i post here? why do you read it?

phantom impressions of a life that i seek,
a heart of humility with visual scars beating steady, beating true
outpouring of love and compassion
intricate delicate bonds of fellowship
i'm COnFuSEd and wide eyed
i want to rANT and...and rave
to stand on a mountain top
like a swaggering madman drunk on insanity

to SCREEAAM accross the canyon of life into another reality of being

beating my chest in shame, in defiance, in submission to The One
yoU are The One
yoU are The One who intentionally and graciously reached, reached out, reached down
taking my limp body you breathed a single mystifying breath
one breath.
a life blood i've never felt before pulses in my body
it's beautiful crazy confusing
i'm a man, a prophet, a glowing soul in-tension
seeking himself, seeking God, seeking others
peace.