open handed beginnings

little did i know that when i posted this back in August the fulfillment would manifest like this. the invitation to live open handed brought me back to the days of sitting in our basement, speaker on either side of the well used pugent red sofa chair. the bass-line vibrating our internals as we sat engulfed in the beat. that CD of yesterday brought 5 dollars to the table today, 5 dollars in to be given back out.


it's fairly easy to say i'll sell my things, but quite another to slow down life enough to allow the purging to occur, and yet another to take the money made and give it away. i could use that money, i could use it to pay off some debt or buy lunch but as i've noticed provision has always been there so i choose to give it away knowing i'm taken care of, if not merely because of where i live.

yesterday i said farewell to my car.
and will now be using my bicycle as my main means of transportation. not as noble as it may sound as i sold it to pay off my credit card and to free myself from the expense of gasoline. i can see already the dependence i will have on the charity of others but i welcome the change.

little did i know it would manifest like this, but i welcome this season with openness trusting that my horizons will be expanded on how to live open handed.

moments of clarity ushered in on the heals of farewell
running mind unceasingly moving quieted by simple acts
the mess of beauty.