There was a time when it was right. When the long rides and strenous runs ushered in tranquility. The harmony of body and spirit music to my soul. Deep rest. A ludicrous dream acheived only by a blessing from above. With the passing of time there has been a shift. A new ludicrous dream dreamt but tranquility evaded, the meditation gone, the nights turned restless. The Master's voice whispering within - "set it down to follow me" Wrestling with clarity - i laid it down. The blessing had been removed; my heart no longer calm in the pursuit. I had to walk away. With the passing of time Jesus invited me into newness, to live open handed. Life to the full comes in following him, and so i go.