therapy

for those reading here.......sorry but i'm using this as a bit of a therapeutic tool at the moment.

i've been restored. the last couple of months i lost sight of today in tomorrow. i lost sight of the splendor of God and his marvelous creation. i'm back. unfortunately it took it's toll on us.

I don't want to rob you of yourself - quite the contrary i want to play a part in helping you become you; for you are the one who captured me. i realize i didn't make that known enough that it didn't come out until it was too late.

God has restored me. i've needed to trust and by his goodness he has given that to me. I dove too far in being an artist/intellectual for God and lost sight of being a clown. I want to be a clown for God - to stand on my head in crowded places singing in gibberish as it's no more nonsensical then everything else we do. dance and skip full and wonder of awe. i want to do this along side of you my love. to share what God has shown me, to learn of what he has shown you. take this time to find Him, for that's where you are inseparably wrapped:: in His mystery.

for the time has come to open ourselves to the mystery of life full of wonder and awe chasing the rabbits down their holes, filling our mouths with more gum that will fit inside we open ourselves to laughter and saliva running down our cheeks. embracing the warm wet kiss of mystery that embraces us.....these pilgrims wondering to and fro acting too seriously....loosing what's important.....reveling our wounds rather then healing from them and processing what is and isn't the kingdom of swings and slides. swimming pools of jello.

sigh

trust is the courage to accept acceptance.