Dissatisfaction, yearning within, realization of corrupted self, things in mind ideas I have that I wish to discuss and nobody there to listen. The elusiveness of community, belonging, loneliness – ah I don’t know – I have major issues…..it’s crazy though – this week I just wanted to hang out and share time with people and on thurs it did, praise God, and yet I long for more – i dream of heaven a place where there’s always someone to share things with – never a longing for companionship…….the seeming lack of importance – community, fellowship, belonging – how possible is the actualization of these ideals?........my spirit longs.