the thing is i'm not entirely sure - but check this out. the thought of working 8-5 in one location making things just doesn't thrill all that much. I mean - it actually kinda scares me. I'm not sure where this view comes from, but this seat it looks like a cage to me. A place to go for 9 hours a day. Makes me feel real uneasy. The more I think about it the more I think that I was made for some type of full time ministry or perhaps teaching position. I don't know - I could do the work and sure it would be bad but I just the feeling that there would be this second guessing going on in my mind. The thing is - other than sorta rejecting a traditional job I'm not sure where that leaves me. I could really use some guidance here. Something to just open my eyes to see more of who I am and to shed light on how my gifts would best be utilized for others and in a manner that brings my being satisfaction. It's these things I pray for - these things I utter out into the seeming silence. And these things that I get to response on. Lord I know you hear me - why don't you answer?

16 October 2003