today during my prayer time i went back to some old journals and read this from about 3 years ago:

life is a pursuit. it begins with our eyes closed - the lights out. we catch glimpses once in a while. solomon in Ecc. wants to know what should people be doing - he is searching - he tried sex, love, riches, ownership, wisdom - all this leaves the darkness dark - it brings no light. then a paradigm shift occurs; he opens his eyes to God and sees life and everything in it as a gift. we could stop there - a gift we get open it and there it is. but this gift is very different - we can never truly "open it". we spend our lives opening it - or better yet we open it but cannot appreciate it - it's a daily thing - something we embark on - not a one time thing - not a single event but a sequence of events

in a word - adventure. where will my adventure take me next? it was interesting reading through the old journal entries i definitely see some patterns and the beginnings of answered prayer. Three years later - the beginning of answered prayer - sometimes (ok most of the time) i'd like to speed this process up, but who am I?

this ties into another entry i wrote around the same time period:

the gospel of grace calls us to sing of the everyday mystery of intimmacy with God instead of always seeking for miracles or visions.

In Faith.