clever things to say, always searching for something clever to say or some new insight into life and it's mystery. i don't really know about cleverness or even insight - i know that yesterday when i was at my Grandpa's house moving things I poked around and found some old photo albums containing pictures of faces, some of which i recognized, some of which where my own. it brought me to an interesting place looking at these pictures....namely to the past of people's lives, these events photographed meant something at the time, faces full of emotion and life all captured on this piece of paper and it was trippy to sit there looking at these pictures and to ponder my life and my past to think back to events that have occured and to think of the present and to imagine what my future thoughts would be looking back on this time of my life......it's an ever progression a learning experience.......constantly striving, questioning the things I do, how i spend my time, looking at previous decisions and coming away puzzled........for me the past is often very distant.....yesterday seems like an eternity ago......for others i know they can recall most of their life events and it's all very vivid......i have vivid cherished memories...but my thoughts rarely turn to visit them......i don't i think what i'm writing now is somewhat nonsense in the way i'm putting these words together......this life i live is short......shorter than i really realize and want to keep this on the forefront of my mind when making decisions that this earthly life is short.....so short.......lately i've been contemplating ways in which i could walk this earth better..........I look at some of the things I've already decided to change - less movies, next to no television, getting rid of things....and i like the way things are progressing......one thought that i toss around and juggle is who i share my meals with.....such an intimate thing.....i want to share meals and company with those that are ignored...the so called dorks, the outkast, the uncool - uncool......to befriend them such a small practical thing that can be done and yet an amazing phenom.......let go in order to sieze it.