i'm in an interesting state these last 48 hours or so......my mind is caught in trying to process things that i've experienced, discussed, and talked about in these recent times.....one major thing that is swirling and being lofted around is the fact that on oct 20 i will be standing in front of a group of people whom i barely know with the expectation that i will be delivering a portion of God's truth to them....what puts me in a spin is the fact that the people with whom i will try and commincate are somewhat foriegn to me......there culture slightly different than mine, they way they view the world, and their vision for the future and the avenue to get slightly different than mine........ I THINK........you see these are all conjectures on my part because really i don't know them.......yet i will standing there trying to relate God's truth.....which is a whole other story.....i'm in the middle of relating God's truth to me and contemplating what it should look like in my life, what impact it should have, and how it should form what i do........and many other things.......He is so holy other and i'm working on how to relate to him in my own uncoordinated way.......i will stand there though......there's something else though, another ingredient in this mix, i don't necessarily care for how things are related and experienced/taught at this place where i'll be standing.....there's soooooo much more going on inside my head..........the ocean is roaring - the flooding river runs rampantly downstream, i need to take some snapshots and process what exactly it looks, feels, sounds, tastes, and smells like before i venture forth...............pray