december06

It's been a bit of a bizarre month, this December 06. I've spent about 70% of the month at Kirkwood trying to finish up the house my family is building. I find it interesting how my mind is both adapting to living/working here as well as missing things in San Francisco. Living somewhat isolated brings new feelings on removing myself from my normal context to shift my perspective on time and my place in this spinning sphere. It's both freeing and jarring to realize the paradox of significance in light of insignificance. I've always wanted to spend 30-40 days in the wilderness alone with my creator and this experience only fuels that desire. There is work for us to do in healing this world and Paul speaks of us each being created to do good works in the world. I wonder though if I use that as an excuse at times to say "Oh I can't be gone for a month alone there are so many things that I need to do" as if God couldn't accomplish them without me. Or I wouldn't be better equiped to do them had I spent that time alone. It's an interesting tension.