I quit

It's annoying to me how inconsistent I've been with blogging lately. One of the things that I set out to get better at in 07 was blogging. One step at a time and this post is moving in that direction I suppose.

So I've quit my job and am now devoting myself full-time to the work of ReIMAGINE. I must tell you that it feels wonderful. There is an overwhelming sense that resonates deep inside that I've made the right move. There have already been a few moments where my mind has taken off into imaginig what the future will look like. Until that time I continue to make small efforts each day that will hopefully propel me in that direction.

Reflecting back on the past 6 or 7 years has been insightful and painful in some ways. Looking back I realize that there was a lack of courage in some ways. I hoped that by talking about things and taking small actions I would pull people around me and together we would embark. While not an entirely silly thought, I realize now that I should have believed enough to take the action alone. Regardless of whether or not people gathered around in the beginning. I think the fear was I didn't want to be doing things alone. Regardless of what could have been, what is, is wonderful and I'm excited to see where it goes.

I have memories all along my life that play in mind. Memories of quiet whispers, and passing thoughts. The theme to them all was a sense that I was supposed to be on the leading edge of God's movement. Riding the adventure there and inviting people into it. The hang up for me was how could I do that full-time? Was that responsible? After years of wrestling with God on what that looks like I've finally shed the necessary lies to live into it, in the current time.

Last night at our gathering I was reminded that of the verse in John "The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit." How I long to live into that.