discipleship

these past days i've been in a bit of internal conflict. constantly praying, thinking about discipleship and how that plays out in my life. as i posted a while back i've been contemplating getting a little more serious about triathlons and am looking at hiring a coach to help me with my goals. the struggle of late has been whether or not evening getting into triathlons more is a worthwhile endeavor. i would be spending anywhere from 10-20 hours a week training which would definitely take time from something else. at this point the something else would be developing ideas that i've got floating around. there by no means mutually exclusive but nonetheless. is it selfish? is it worthwhile? are the questions that have been burdening me.
in all honesty it is a slightly selfish - all this time spent training. today however i had this thought. first off, i know this sounds strange, but i really do enjoy the training (most of the time at least) its a time where time evaporates and its just me and our Father spending time together rejuvinating my soul. so in that sense it's a healthy as it will no doubt provide inspiration for me. also today i was wondering if it's similar to musicians. they have to spend time practicing, honing there skills, could this be my instrument? perhaps.

I also went back to when i decided to race NZ and raised support and hopefully some awareness for AIDS, i'd would definitely want to do that again. use this as an opportunity to turn myself into a running, cycling ad for the pandemic of AIDS.

the conflict arose when i was wondering if Jesus would want me to give this up, to spend this time i would be spending training in other areas. volunteering or what have you. i'm still mulling that over. i will still have life; especially considering that i only work part time. if anything it will help me in scheduling my time a little better.continue reading.....