struggle
do you ever struggle with your identity - not so much finding out who you are, but experiencing the way you react to certain things and wonder why. why does something inside of me get restless when the talk revolves around institution? i'm heading into a new area of ministry but, and i sort of understand, one problematic area is i'm not an "official member". despite the fact that i've been participating in high school ministry for the last almost 7 years i'm not considered a member. i haven't pledged my allegiance, part of me understands and the other part both becomes defiant and sinks into a melancholy state wondering what has happened. the elders might not know me all that well, but there are people there who i've struggled through life and faith with. who can give testimony to my undying love for God and His Son. when did that become insufficient?
11 May 2005
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but i don't think their inacceptance should be taken as a form of not legitimizing you. i've been thinking about identity recently and what it all means. i guess a question i would have for you is to ask if you are miffed with them because they are not extending some sort of leadership within what's going on, or are they not letting you share your voice in decisions, etc... just a question.
thanks for the push back i really appreciate it and am looking at this time for some refinement on my part which couldn't happen if others didn't give their perspective. thanx.
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