tonight my family celebrated me and my sister's birthday. me 26 her 22. it was moving to be in the presence of my family laughing, poking fun at each other. opening the card from my parents a rush of emotion hit me. and again driving back to the apartment an overwhelming sense of inadequacy in my expression of how much i love my brothers, sisters and parents. i'm undeserving of them, of how they love me. it's beautiful. it leaves me speechless in awe of love. my mind moving everyone else in my life. you are all loved everyone of you -
kristie m. for all those times picking me up at the airport, housing me, encouraging me, being there. matt p. my friend through thick and thin you inspire me to live differently. danny n. you servant heart leaves me in awe and aspire to learn from you. shannon you're beautiful heart moves me and i can only dream of touching people like you do. kristi n. my big spiritual sister continue to be bold. rachell you overwhelm me with your tender heart. lendy, todd, craig, aaron, mike, chad, jen & jason, mel sherman, kendle, annelies, holli and all those who escape my limited mind.
thank you all of you for being you, for interacting with me, for calling me friend.
for being the hands and feet of Jesus in my life.
i'm processing changes that i need to make in my life - in my way of being. recent events have flashed before me, some monetarily expensive lessons that i need to work toward correcting. showing more appreciation, living less fiscally carefree.
oh what a wretched mess i am.
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thank u adam for such kind words. they could move me to tears and i feel so undeserving of such a description yet nonetheless touched. unless...u meant a different shannon. and in that case...well...i could get embarassed...but won't. anyway, whatever the case...this is how i feel about u: i love u dearly and feel as though we have a special bond friendship. u have been such a support to me...loving me...challenging me...always giving me hugs in those times when i really needed them...even though i wouldn't admit it generally. haha. thank u...i look forward to when we're all old and grey with families...but i'm warning u...if u grab my but when i'm ninety...it might not be as firm...haha...gross.
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