reflections

It's been a whirlwind of activity this past weekend. My brother Andrew graduated high school and a dear friend Andy Palmer got married. Also my good friend Ryan had his Album Release parties and graciously allowed me to share some of my poetry. At each of the parties it was great to see friends and family that I haven't seen a long time. Yesterday in particular was wonderful as I had a couple conversations that struck at a piece of my heart that was longing for encouragement.

Perhaps it was lack of sleep, or the busyness of the last few days but I was questioning the sanity of the life I live. I'm sure much of it is self induced pressure and intensity but living on the fringes of society and trying to forge a new way of life is quite daunting. As I was driving from Rocklin to San Francisco yesterday I couldn't help but ask myself why I couldn't just get a regular job and live a "normal" life? Of course deep down I know the reason is because there is an imprint on my soul that pushes me out to creative unknown. I feel called out to this "no-man's land" of living where sacrifice is eminent and ambiguity your best friend.

Yesterday a few people with more years than I encouraged me and said in all their years the most important thing is communion with the Great Mystery that spoke all this into being. "Live and rest in the power that sustains everything and ask for what you need," I was told. Words we often hear, but these words were from the mouths of people whom I deeply respect and who have lived lives on both sides of the flow. Giving them a credibility in my mind and not a bunch of spiritual hyperbole.

Oh that my faith may be strengthened as I move forward in this great adventure; that I honestly wouldn't trade for anything.